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Friday, August 12, 2011

Never Say Never

As I am currently taking the steps to follow the vision that God has placed on my heart, the title and theme of a post I read on Christine Caine's blog from a guest really struck a nerve. The title was "Never Say Never". In the post, Bianca Olthoff wrote...

"Never tell God you'll never do something. It's almost like the summer camp game, Truth or Dare, but you're playing against the cosmic champion. Yup, it's TOTALLY an unfair advantage. But God is a gracious winner who creates challenges to prove you aren't as weak as you perceive yourself to be."

It made me laugh. Why? Because I reasoned with God a long time ago and told him that I couldn't study medicine in college because I could "never" make life and death decisions for anyone. That was years in double digits ago. We just finished up a series about "Vision" at church and it struck me pretty hard that I wasn't on the right road to reach my vision. To borrow a quote from Holly Wagner, "I was running in someone else's lane." I realized that the burning fire I thought I had snuffed out long ago was simply just switched back to a pilot light, ready and waiting to be ignited.

Houston, we have ignition!

So now I'm impatiently waiting to see if my application was accepted so I can go back to school to study what? If you answered medicine, you get an A for the day. It's going to be a slow part time process for a while. I need to find out which of my core classes will transfer, complete the dreaded placement testing, etc. The most important thing I've learned...Texas and Iowa are very different when it comes to core classes. I have to take 2 History and 2 Government courses. Believe me...I'm thrilled. I'm pretty sure by the time I have my BSN, I'll have enough credits for an extra degree. Did I mention that I'm planning to go to Nursing School on the cash plan with no loans? Maybe I should just save that for a post of it's own!

But what about the life and death decisions that you said you'd never make? The long and the short of it is that I had to make those decisions on a daily basis after our daughter Emma was born 14 weeks premature. My micro preemie weighed a whopping 1 pound 13.6 ounces at birth. We were forced to start making those life/death decisions within hours of her birth. Consents had to be given for transfusions and procedures and suddenly the thing I said I would never do was exactly what I WAS doing. It was a humbling moment when I figured that out. God used my daughters birth to teach me a lesson about myself that I was too afraid to challenge on my own. I was stronger than I ever gave myself credit for. As I watched the nurses skillfully attend to my daughter, I saw brief glimmers of myself in their shoes. It was those moments when I knew that someday my dream was going to finally take flight.

I'll leave you with this. I posted this video on Facebook this past week because the lyrics really speak volumes! (Did I also mention the series that followed "Vison" was about fear? They're kind of like peanut butter and jelly, they always seem to be found together!)



Walk On The Water
Songwriters: Josh Crosby; Dan Muckala; Brittany Nicole Waddell

You look around
It's staring back at you
Another wave of doubt
Will it pull you under?
You wonder
What if I'm overtaken?
What if I never make it?
What if no one's there?
Will you hear my prayer?

When you take that first step
Into the unknown
You know that he won't let you go

Chorus:
So what are you waiting for?
What do you have to lose?
Your insecurities try to hold to you

You know you're made for more
So don't be afraid to move
Your faith is all
It takes and you can
Walk on the water too

Verse 2:
So get out and let
Your fear fall to the ground
No time to waste
Don't wait
Don't you turn around and miss out
Everything you were made for
I know you're not sure
So you play it safe
Try to run away

When you take that first step
Into the unknown
He won't let you go

(chorus)

Bridge:
(step out)
Even when a storm hits
(step out)
Even when you're broken
(step out)
Even when your heart is telling you telling you to give up
(step out)
When your hope is stolen
You can't see where you're going
You don't have to be afraid

So what are you waiting,
What are you waiting for?

So what are you waiting for?
What do you have to lose?
Your insecurities try to hold to you

You know you're made for more
So don't be afraid to move
Your faith is all
It takes and you can
Walk on the water...
Walk on the water too

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Friday, July 8, 2011

The Wrestling

I've never considered myself to be a wrestler but right now I am wrestling with something BIG. There is a point in life where you can choose to keep walking in the same direction or you can go through the turnstile and head off another way. I feel like this is one of those junctions in life for me.

There has been a lot of talk about vision, direction, calling, etc. circling my life as of late. Posts by friends on Facebook, church, I feel like it's all heading somewhere and I'm afraid I'm going to cause a big crash when it all collides at my feet. I say at my feet because my brain really can't process much more!

I'm stuck right now praying and pondering. If this is really my vison, my calling that has come to light recently, I am totally and utterly overwhelmed. There is no possible way I can do this on my own and it scares me. I'd rather just pack it away in a box and forget about it, or dumb it down to something that it isn't, just to make it more "manageable" for me to handle. Then again, it may just be a repressed fantasy or an irresponsible dream that I have just concocted out of sheer nothingness just to torture myself.

Until I have peace about this I dare not share. It will sound foolish...I can guarantee it! For now I am holding my breath, praying, and meditating on God's word.

"for it is God who works in you to will and to act in order to fulfill his good purpose." Philippians 2:13

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." Philippians 4:13

"for we walk by faith, not by sight—" 2 Corinthians 5:7

“And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Matthew 6:28-34

"for your Father knows what you need before you ask him." Matthew 6:8

"He replied, “Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.” Matthew 17:20

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Friday, May 27, 2011

Five For Friday

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I thought I would share a few random thoughts for you today. Why five? Alliteration my dears...alliteration.

1. Things I'm annoyed with at the moment, birds squawking loudly outside my window, my sinus infection & the inability to breathe through my nose, and lawn mowing at 7:30am.

2. I never seem to win anything...but today I've already won 2 things. I won a blog makeover from an awesome designer Just Jaimee, and I also won a 3 pack of pocket sized bottles of Entertainer's Secret Throat Spray. I think I'll go buy a lottery ticket later today...I'm on a roll! :)

3. My 1 pound 13.6 ounce preemie turned 5 years old a little over a week ago. She amazes me everyday with how smart & beautiful she is.

4. We went on a cruise as a family 2 weeks ago. We had so much fun that my daughter keeps asking me if we can go on another cruise again sometime soon.

5. On June 4th, my niece Erin Pospisil has been missing for 10 years. She was 15 years old when she disappeared. This year, ala Tangled, family and friends will be releasing sky lanterns to symbolize the hopes and prayers which have been lifted up for Erin & other missing children. For more information on the event or to read more about Erin's story, please visit Help Find A Child.

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Thursday, April 21, 2011

Collab Fab!

Mommyish has 2 new kits out this week and both are collabs! The first is a collab with Sweet Lilac Studio callled Summer Blooms.































This is the layout I made with this kit...

Sweet & Sassy
You can get the kit here! I also used another fabulous font from Kevin & Amanda called Cry Kitty.

The second collab kit was created by Mommyish & Amanda Heimann Designs. It is called Pretty Picnic.































The layout I made with this kit is quickly becoming one of my favorite layouts that I've created so far...

New Do
You can get Pretty Picnic here. The font is once again from Kevin & Amanda, it is called Socially Awkward.

Have a great Thursday!

Thursday, April 14, 2011

What Happens at Cabelas...Stays at Cabelas

What happens at Cabelas, stays at Cabelas...that is unless your mother is a scrapbooker!

One fine day we went to Cabelas with the grandparents to "feed the fish" and "see the animals". Then we saw a bunch of "stuffies". Those are stuffed animals for those of you who don't speak Emmanese. She picked up the opossum and the rest is photographic history. I'm thinking that these might go into the collection of photos I'm saving to embarass her when she's a teenager.

Possum
The kit is Live Out Loud by Mommyish. The font is My Own Topher by Kevin & Amanda.

Saturday, April 9, 2011

More Mommyish Love

Mommyish had a new release yesterday...Easter Fever!






























You can get it here.

It coordinates with...Sprungle Fever!































And you can get that one here.

Or just buy the bundle here, and save some money!

You can even get this cool freebie from Mommyish's blog!































And last but not least, here is my layout for Easter Fever. I know, the anticipation was eggciting wasn't it! :)

Happy Easter

Friday, April 8, 2011

10 Uses For Baby Wipes

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Really...I know, but for the past year and a half we've been trying to figure out how to use up all of the wipes we stockpiled while my dd was still in diapers. So I thought I'd pass on a little of what I've learned in our conservation experiment. On a side note, we have always used unscented wipes. I have fragrance allergies and frankly, the smell of baby powder from most wipes just grosses me out!

1. washing little hands & faces - These are great to use while camping, shopping, dining out, etc. I usually have a few on hand at all times. They work just as well for adult hands & faces.

2. makeup removers - They work great on washable waterproof and regular mascara (I've never tried it with traditional waterproof mascara). They don't irritate eyes like some cleansers can. It's a great alternative to "I'm so tired, I'm going to sleep in my makeup".

3. smoothing flyaway hair - As a photographer by profession for several years, this is one of my favorite tricks. Glide the wipe gently over the hair a few times and the flyaways will tame. It won't make the hair look wet either. DO NOT make the mistake of using a Clorox wipe for this trick. I heard a lovely story from the photgrapher when we got my daughter's Christmas pics taken. She said it bleached a noticable patch of the child's hair almost instantly. I feel sorry for that mom and I wasn't even there!

4. cleaning rubber stamps - I always hated trying to clean rubber stamps, especially the kind with the wooden base before I discovered this trick. Just wipe them down with a baby wipe when you're done. It gets into all of the nooks and crannies and saves a lot of time and frustration.

5. quick clean ups - Occasionally I use wipes to pick up dust, clean dirt off of a wall or wipe down counters. Baby wipes sure are handy to have around aren't they?

6. cleaning tile floors - You would laugh if you came to our house on "cleaning day". You might find my daughter and I "floor skating" in the kitchen on our tile floor. We put wipes on the floor, put our feet on top, then we "skate" around the floor to clean up the dirt. It really is a fun way to do a boring task and she doesn't complain at all about helping.

7. paw wipes - Our dog likes to get dirty sometimes. I would rather not have to clean the tile floor everyday so occasionally we resort to using wipes to clean paws on days with bad weather. We taught her to "wipe her feet" on the rug when she came inside as a puppy but now that she's getting older, she just ignores the request. She hears, she just doesn't listen.

8. dry erase clean up - Yucky streaky dry erase boards can be remedied with a simple swipe of a baby wipe. Just wait a minuted for it to fully dry before you try to write on it again.

9. light stain removers - Got something on your shirt at lunch? Splatter yourself with a bit of toothpaste? Were you the victim of food flinging by your toddler? Notice a spot of dirt on your pants? Baby wipes to the rescue! Just wipe the stain with a baby wipe. Depending on the stain, it may just get the whole thing out or leave a less noticeable spot. Either way, the stain will be easier to get out in the wash later.

10. wiping baby bottoms - And last but not least, the original use for baby wipes...for baby bottoms. Did you think I was going to forget this one?

This was not an exhaustive list by any means. Just my top 10. What creative uses have you found for baby wipes?

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Busy Busy

Sometimes I forget about my blog. The past few weeks have been one of those times. I started designing layouts as a member of the creative team for an amazing digital scrapbook designer, Mommyish, a little over a month ago. She opened a new shop a few days ago at The Digichick and has had the whole team in a flurry of activity with lots of new releases. I'm keeping up...barely! But I'm enjoying this experience. I'm having to use a single kit, as is, without adding or altering things. It's a challenge but I like challenges! Here are a few new layouts...enjoy!

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This is the desktop wallpaper currently on my laptop. It was made using Preppy Priss by Mommyish with an absolutely adorable photo showcasing my daughter's amazingly blue eyes.


Will Travel
In honor of my sweet girl getting her passport photos taken and completing the application process last week, I made this layout. The kit is Sprungle Fever by Mommyish. I love the colors in this kit. Of course I used my new favorite font... Baby Boston by Kevin & Amanda.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Do You JBF?

I am not embarassed to say that I am very frugal. My husband is a spender, I on the other hand, am not. I would like to pay the smallest amount I have to in order to get what I want. I think a lot of this is due to my mother's spendthrift example when I was growing up. Paying off a small mountain of debt a few years ago and not wanting to go into debt again has been my motivation to stay that way. Thank you Dave Ramsey!

When our daughter was born almost 5 years ago, I learned about something almost magical for saving money. It's a little thing called consignment sales. My favorite is Just Between Friends in Grapevine. Kids grow out of their clothes so fast and it seems pointless to spend a small fortune on just a few outfits. So I go to Just Between Friends and buy most of my daughter's clothes for the season and spend no more than I would for 2 or 3 outfits at full price. I know...crazy isn't it! That is why I love these sales. I spend an hour or 2 looking for great deals on gently used clothing and I save a bundle.


In honor of the next sale that is coming up this weekend, March 26th & 27th, I thought I would share a few tips that I've learned over the years.

1. Don't bring your kids with you to the sale.
I made this mistake as a rookie once when my daughter was almost 2. It was not fun having to keep pulling her out of the racks of clothes because she wanted to "hide." Or she wanted to keep playing with all the toys. (In case you didn't know, these sales are more than just clothes!) Draft your spouse or get a babysitter...you'll thank me later.

2. Write down your child's measurements before leaving home & take a tape measure with you to the sale.
This always comes in handy for me, especially for dresses. My daughter has a very long torso and most dresses in her size are too short on her. So I measure from the back of her neck where the neckline should be to the back of her knee. At the sale I use my tape measure to check the length of a prospective dress. If it's shorter than my measurement, NO SALE.

3. Know what you're looking for.
The last thing you want to do is go to the sale and buy 10 pairs of jeans when you really needed shirts and you came home with none. It's just like going to the grocery store, make a list.

4. Bring a huge bag or a laundry basket.
This JBF sale offers IKEA shopping bags to shop with and they will even sell them too you when you leave. Save yourself a buck, bring your own. If you bring a laundry basket, you won't have to carry anything. Just push it along with you as you browse the racks.

5. Examine clothes carefully.
I pay attention to clothing labels. I'll pay more for Gymboree than I will for Circo because the original price is more. I also pay more for adjustable waist pants because for us, they are absolutely necessary and usually cost more in the store. I tend to buy outfits (tops & pants sold together) or multiple pieces bundled together because the are usually a better price per piece. My last step is to check for stains & holes, a deal breaker for me.

6. Set a $$$ limit and stick to it.
I set a budget before I walk into a sale. I pick up the clothes I like as I shop. When I'm done, I take a look at each item again & add them up. If I'm over budget, I put back the items I like the least until I'm back within my budget. It's also a great time to use your shopping list. If you have too many shirts, shirts go back first, etc.

Just writing this post has made me a little giddy. I love saving money! If you're not in the Grapevine area, check out Just Between Friends for a sale near you!

DISCLAIMER: I am not consigning items for this sale...I just love great deals and want to share them with my friends!

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Two For The Price of One

I'm not going to bore you with a lot of words in my post today...there are enough of them in the scrapbook layouts that you will see shortly. I'm really enjoying this new creative outlet of being on Mommyish's creative team. The other talented ladies I'm working along side are a riot. We have an online forum where were communicate with each other and it never ceases to amaze me or make me laugh like crazy...sometimes both. I've also been made aware that I have an ellipsis problem. Thankfully the creative team helps enable it!

So here are my latest creations...

Archnemesis
Credits: kit - Phat Camp by Mommyish, fonts - Thinking of You & My Own Topher by Kevin & Amanda

And in honor of the 5 year anniversary of my first bout of preterm labor...

Pinch Me
Credits: kit - Pinch Me by Mommyish, font - Baby Boston by Kevin & Amanda

Enjoy!

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Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Time to Create

I have had a pretty exciting week already. I got a major feather fluff a few days ago. I was chosen to be a part of my first Creative Team! Don't worry, I won't bore you with a detailed explanation of the ins and outs of the digital scrapbooking world. Instead, I'll give you the short and sweet explanation of what a Creative Team is. It is simply a group of scrapbookers who create layouts for a specific designer to showcase their products. I applied (my first time) and surprisingly, I made the team!

Who am I now "creating" for? It is none other than the fabulous, funky designer (enter fanfare sound here)... Mommyish. You can find her beautiful designs exclusively at SugarHillCo.

Here is my first layout with her latest release "Rockabilly".
Sweet

I'm a little nervous because becoming part of a Creative Team is a new venture for me. Thankfully I have a great bunch of scrappers who are on the team with me. Hopefully they won't get tired of all my questions!

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Friday, February 18, 2011

Laugh

Here is my latest scrapbook layout.

Laugh
Credits: kit- Just Love Me by Sugar Hill Co designers, font- Amanda's hand by Kevin & Amanda, layout lifted from "digigirl" at sugarhillco.com

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Saturday, February 12, 2011

Speed Scrapping

I have actually done a lot more scrapbooking lately. In fact, I've found a way to make things a little more fun. It's called "speed scrapping".

Lots of sites that sell digital scrapbooking kits host them & you usually get a prize like a discount or a free kit for completing your layout within the time limit. They start at a specific time and you get instructions every 10 minutes until the hour is up. After that hour is over, you usually get 1 more hour to complete your layout and post it to both the gallery and the forum thread where you got the directions. It was a challenge but it forced me to finish & not obsess if everything was in the right place. Even mild OCD tendencies are not good when digital scrapbooking!

I thought I'd share the results. Enjoy!

Coolest
Credits: Kit= Hipster by Laura Banasiak, Font= a little pot by Kevin & Amanda


Love
Credits: Kit= Just Love Me by Sugar Hill Co designers (collab), Font= Fill Me In by Sugar Frog


And I know it's a few days early but...

Happy Valentine's Day!

Valentine 2011

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Sunday, February 6, 2011

And One Of My Hobbies Finally Pays Off

I had a strange email in my inbox a few days ago. It was a $20 print credit from Persnickety Prints. I didn't get any other notification, just the credit. It couldn't be. Really? I actually won something?

Rewind

I realized a few months ago, that I had been totally neglecting my digital scrapbooking. I had started out 2010 with the goal to scrap one page a week for the year. I think I stopped sometime in February. When it came time to make my Christmas cards, I realized I was out of practice. I'd forgotten all of my favorite Photoshop Elements shortcuts & quick keys and the cards took waaaay longer than they should have. So I decided I needed to practice. I knew of a site that ran contests every month with a template so I did a little downloading then went to work. I really wasn't impressed with my entry but I liked the sentiment behind it.


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The journaling reads: "This year I resolve to not beat myself up when I don't accomplish all of the wonderful things that I plan to do this year. It's not about perfection, it's about progress!"

Credits: template by Veronica Spriggs, kit is Daydreamin' by Megan Turnidge, numbers are clear gel by Free Digital Scrapbooking, and the font is "a little pot" by Kevin & Amanda

I actually won the challenge. If you don't believe me, you can see the winners post here... January 2011 Challenge winners

Talk about some nice motivation to make some more pages. I need to use that credit somehow!

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Real Life Stories From The ER

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I wish I could say that we had a fabulous time when we went to Kansas City this past weekend. But if I did, I would be lying. We arrived at 2am on Saturday morning after an 8 hour drive from Fort Worth and a little over 24 hours later, we were in the ER with a very sick little girl.

For those of you who don't know, our beautiful daughter was born prematurely at 26 weeks gestation and weighed 1 pound 13.6oz at birth. She was on a ventilator for her first 18 days of life and had a few other complications, but none required surgery. She came home from the hospital when she was 12 weeks old.

Outside of a few colds, she has been incredibly healthy. When she was 3, she had her first episode of croup and her airway swelled so badly that her lips turned blue from lack of oxygen. We took her to the ER, they treated her and she was released after about 4 hours. This was incredibly scary and thanks to our high deductible insurance, very expensive. She had less severe bouts of croup two times, once a year later and once last month. I thought we done with croup for at least another 6 months, but I was wrong, oh so very wrong.

We had a great day on Saturday. We had some fabulous BBQ for lunch. Emma had fun playing Wii with her Grandma then we had dinner with one of my husband's cousins and his family. Altogether, it was an uneventful day. We were all tired so we went to bed early. At 2am, we got a knock on our door. It was my MIL, our daughter was coughing. Then from across the house in the living room, I heard the sound that I dread hearing...I knew immediately that it was croup again.

Nothing quite gets you heart racing as much as knowing that you have a limited amount of time to get things under control. She was coughing without being able to catch her breath so the first order of business was to get her to calm down. We snuggled, we rubbed her back, we spoke to her softly, and we had her breathe some cold air from the freezer. No change. My husband took her outside in the below freezing weather to have her breathe more cold air. No change. I took her into the bathroom that I steamed up from the shower. Again, no change. We tried the cold air outside again. No change. At this point, we'd tried everything we could, she was still coughing and her breathing was getting more strained. We had no other choice but to go to the ER.

We arrived at the ER at The University of Kansas Hospital around 2:45am. After going through a metal detector while carrying my daughter, I entered the hospital. They printed out her wristband, weighed her, and we were taken to a room. As we walked past the desk, every doctor and nurse looked up because my sweet girl's breathing was so loud. You could see it written in the pained look on all of their faces, they knew it was croup. Within minutes we had a nurse, a resident, a respiratory therapist, and the attending in our room.

Albuterol first, no change. Next they tried some cool humidified air, no change. Then they said we would have to go for the big guns and use racemic epinephrine. The attending said they would have to observe her for 4-6 hours in the event that the drug might cause a rebound of the swelling. This was followed by oral steroids. There was no change immediately but after about 1/2 hour, she was starting to sound better.

I sent my husband back to his mom's house to get some sleep. There was no sense in both of us being walking dead. I stayed by her bedside, waiting, trying to keep her oxygen mask on. An hour passed, no one visited. After about an hour and a half, a nurse told us we couldn't stay in the ER for 6 hours so our daughter would have to be admitted. Admitted? Really? She'd had the same drug before the first time she had croup with no problems. More time passed. Finally the Pediatric residents arrived to check her over around shift change. After giving a detailed medical history, they listened to her lungs, and looked in her ears. They said she sounded fine but they said she still needed to be observed.

At 4 hours post meds, a man came into the room with a clipboard of forms. I asked him what they were and he said they were admissions forms. At that point I had to ask, "So my daughter is being admitted?" He responded "No one told you?" I begrudgingly signed the forms and a few minutes later a new resident came into the room. More questions I've already answered...I'm beginning to wonder if anyone has really read her chart. I asked her about the admission; she had no idea when Emma would be moved. More waiting.

5 hours post meds, a woman came to transport our little patient who was now anything but "patient", to the pediatric unit. I spoke to a new nurse who came in to help get her disconnected from the monitors for the transport. I questioned the advice of the admission and asked to speak with the attending from pediatrics. When he arrived with resident in tow, I asked lots of questions and explained once again that we were 600 miles from home, this is the 4th time she's had croup, she'd had this drug before with no rebound, she'd already been observed for 5 hours, and an admission would add at least 5K to our out of pocket costs. I was told she could be released but Against Medical Advice. I told them I would have to speak with my husband and would then let them know our decision.

I texted my husband to come back to the hospital. When he arrived we attempted to contact the insurance company to find out how the AMA release or the possibility of an admission would affect us. But much to our dismay, they were closed due to the holiday. Then we tried to go on their website to find out if the hospital we were at was even "in network". The site kept looping us back to the sign on screen so we couldn't even find out if we were even covered. So we asked for the resident and the attending to come back again.

We asked how long they would admit her for observation. The attending said 16 to 24 hours. I asked him if that was in addition to the 6 1/2 hours we had already waited since the drug was administered. Suddenly it appeared that a light went on in his head. Again we talked about our insurance out of pocket costs. When we said who our insurer was, the light got a little bit brighter and we got a sympathetic “Oh.” Apparently our insurer is not accepted by very many doctors in the Kansas City area and the list is growing shorter every day. I believe that was the catalyst that finally got our appeal across.

Within 10 minutes of that conversation, our daughter was given a full release from the ER. We were given a script for more oral steroids and the obligatory information sheets about croup. Emma, who didn't sleep a wink in the hospital, was out cold before we even left the parking garage.

The moral of this story is a simple one. You are your child's best advocate. You are their voice when they need it. It's not about what is best for others; it's about what is best for your child. She was exhausted and would not have slept at all in the hospital, making her condition worse. She was past the window of rebound but the hospital, to protect themselves from lawsuits, put a policy in place to admit children who are given racemic epinephrine even though this was well beyond the activity of the drug. Thankfully advocating for our child, a precious girl that we would never take undue chances with, ended with her sleeping peacefully at "home" where she could relax and get better. Her cough didn't return and we left before noon on Monday to head back to Texas. Now she has little more than a cold. Bye bye croup, we hope to never see you again!

Friday, January 7, 2011

My Radio is My GPS

I know this is going to sound really silly to some of you, but my radio is my GPS. I still have my trusty Garmin but in one certain circumstance, we get some news we don't always want to hear via the radio. Let me explain.

It all started many years ago when my husband & I lived in Jackson Mississippi. Our church hosted a group of teens from Florida & we agreed to let some of them stay at our house. Over the next week we heard a song, repeatedly, that they would be performing at the end of the VBS. It was called "Every Move I Make". We heard it so many times that we would laugh every time we heard it. We were sad when the teens left to go back home to FL but we knew we would think of them every time we heard that song. Little did we know that the song would take on new meaning for us over the next few months.

Major changes had happened job wise a few months before our visitors. My husband lost his job and took another job he didn't really like but it paid the bills until he could find the job he really wanted. It was not an ideal situation but we made the most of it. He started applying for jobs again and we hoped for the best. The teens came & left, weeks passed. Then all of a sudden both of us kept hearing the song again, in different vehicles, at different times of the day. We would joke about it, "maybe God wants us to leave Mississippi". It no longer became a joke when a few days later, my husband got called for a job interview in Philadelphia. He ended up getting the job & in 2 weeks, he was in Philly working at his new job while I packed up in Jackson.

We heard the song again a little over a year later while we were living in Philly. In another few weeks, he was in a new job in a new city. This time it was Minneapolis. We were renting, and had been looking at houses but couldn't find one that we loved. We started hearing the song again a few months before our daughter turned one. We ended up buying a new house & moving a little over a month later. Then surprisingly, we heard the song again 16 months later. Major changes were happening at my husband's job again, this time a merger. His position would be redundant in the new company and he would most likely lose his job. He had already started looking but we had no progress, that is until we heard the song again.

The cogs started to move quickly at that point. We prayed about it again this time and we both came to the conclusion that we needed to decide where we wanted to move, then find a job there. We unanimously agreed on moving back to Texas. We loved living in DFW before and our agreement proved that it was were we should be. He interviewed, got the job, and soon I was on an plane to find a place to live because the move needed to take place in a few weeks. We've been here, in the same house we've been renting for the last 2 1/2 years.

A few days ago, my husband called me to tell me he heard the song on the radio. Today, I heard the song followed by Chris Tomlin's "I Will Follow". If the past events still hold true, this is our sign that we'll be moving again. I would love to expand on this and tell you about all of the crazy wonderful things that are going on right now but alas, I am under a proverbial gag order on the subject. (see Proverbs 14:1) So far, our GPS has gotten us exactly where we need to be. I have faith that this time it will be no different.

For your listening enjoyment, I've put videos of the 2 songs I mentioned on my blog. Enjoy!